Perfect (Defining Love 3)
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missmara13Title: Perfect (Defining Love 3)
Author: Mara
Rating: PG-15
Warnings: Language. Sex, but nothing too graphic...
Summary: Love is one of those things you can't really define sometimes, and the best kind of love is the kind that defies definition entirely.
Notes: Another random portion of the saga of Ryan and his daughter... lol... this whole story will be jumping a bit in time... but it'll still be linear (As in, each chapter will take place AFTER the last chapter... but it might take place months or even a couple years after)
Defining Love - Perfect
By the time Ryan made it from Newport to LA, then through traffic to the hospital, Alex had already given birth. He was directed to the room they'd put her in, and found her sleeping lightly, but as he walked in her eyes opened. "I'm sorry I missed it," he told her.
"All you missed was me yelling that you were a dead man for knocking me up," Alex replied tiredly. "And the doctors freaking out over blood loss."
"Are you okay?" Ryan asked, moving to sit down in the chair next to her bed and take her hand in his.
"Just really tired and weak," Alex said. "I'll be fine. But you... you should be down at the nursery checking out Baby Girl Atwood."
"Lily," Ryan said. "I wanna name her Lily, if that's okay with you."
"It's girly," Alex complained, though she was smiling.
"Only Atwood who never betrayed me or hurt me was my Grandma Lily. My dad's mom. She was... she was amazing."
"Then I guess it'll do," Alex said.
"Lily Kelly Atwood," Ryan said. "She's gotta have something from you."
"Besides my scariness, because you know she'll inherit that."
"God help me," Ryan replied with a chuckle. "You're sure you're okay?"
"I'm fine," Alex said. "Go see your girl."
"Our girl," Ryan said firmly. "I don't care if you're not planning on being around much, she's gonna know all about her mom. Not about the way she was conceived against a wall, but..."
Alex laughed. "Go," she said.
Ryan nodded and got up again, pausing only to lean forward and kiss Alex's forehead. "I'm always gonna care about you, Alex," he said. "You know that, right?"
"I'll always give a damn about you, too," Alex replied.
Before Ryan could leave, a nurse came in with the baby. "Is this dad?" she asked.
"Yeah," Alex said. "Give her to him, would ya'?"
Once the baby was in Ryan's arms, he held her close to his chest as he studied her tiny features and her wide, curious, blue eyes. "Hi, Lily," he said, shifting his hold slightly so he could brush his thumb over her cheek. "I'm your daddy, and I love you very much." He looked over at Alex. "She's perfect," he whispered.
"Huh, so I guess she doesn't take after either of us," Alex replied with a smile.
"I don't know, I think she has your eyes," Ryan replied. "But if she ever puts multicolored streaks in ehr hair, I'm blaming you entirely."
"And if she grows up to cage fight, I'll blame you," Alex said, laughing slightly. "You're gonna do a good job with her, Ryan."
"Here's hoping," Ryan whispered.
~~~
Ryan didn't tell the Cohens that Lily had been born, just that he was staying in LA to be closer to Alex for the next few days. He didn't want to be flooded with their attentions yet, and he knew Alex didn't want to see the way Kirsten looked at her, disapproving of Alex's decision not to be in Lily's life. So, when Ryan pulled his car up in front of the Cohen house and Kirsten stepped outside to ask how his visit went, she was surprised to see him lifting a baby filled car seat from the back. "Oh my God," she whispered, coming over.
"I just wanted a couple days of peace to get to know her," Ryan replied.
"She's beautiful," Kirsten cooed, reaching out to stroke a sleeping Lily's cheek. "Oh honey, she's perfect."
"I know," Ryan replied. "Come on, it's chilly, I don't want her out in the cold."
Kirsten nodded and grabbed some of the bags from the back, leaving Ryan to carry the lightest, but most important, thing. "Prescious cargo," she said with a smile.
As they stepped into the house, Ryan could hear Sandy and Seth in the kitchen, and they headed that way. "Hey, wanna keep it down so you don't wake her up?" Ryan asked, gently setting the carrier down.
"Why didn't you tell us?" Sandy asked as he and Seth flocked over to see Lily.
"I wanted a couple days to adjust and get to know her on my own," Ryan said. "Isn't she perfect?" he added after a moment.
"Kinda wrinkly," Seth said.
Ryan smacked him in the stomach. "My daughter is not wrinkly, she's perfect," he said.
"Spoken like a true dad," Sandy said, clapping Ryan on the back. "And he's right Seth, your niece is not wrinkly. Especially compared to you when you were born."
"What's her name?" Seth asked, leaning in again to see her.
"Lily Kelly Atwood," Ryan replied. As though in response to her name, Lily opened her eyes and looked around at the new faces. "Hey, look who woke up," Ryan said, unbuckling her and picking her up. "Just in time to meet your family," he said. "Grandpa Sandy, and Grandma Kirsten, and Uncle Seth," he said.
~~~
The Cohens buzzed around Ryan and Lily for the next few hours, but finally he convinced them, mainly convinced Seth since Sandy and Kirsten understood, that Lily needed to be put to bed, and Ryan needed to work on a paper that was due in a few days. Ryan carefully put Lily in the crib, making sure she was safely positioned and there were no stuff animals in it to cause problems, just like the baby books said, then settled down on his bed to get to work.
He managed to work about an hour before Lily started fussing, and he had to put everything aside. With a sigh, he got Lily out of her crib and checked her diaper, which was dry, then warmed a bottle and fed her, smiling as she happily suckled on it and he found he was able to carefully sit on the bed and read a text book that he put off to once side.
"I can totally do this," he said, glancing down at Lily, then going back to his book.
~~~
He wasn't so sure at 2 in the morning when Lily woke up crying. He could get her to quiet down and be almost asleep, but everytime he tried to put her back in her crib she started whimpering again and worked herself up to screaming. Finally, he gave up and laid back down on his own bed with Lily on his chest, her little red face relaxing and her hands pulling into tiny fists that gripped his shirt. She fell asleep in no time, followed closely by Ryan, who barely managed to glance at the clock first, noticing it was almost 5.
~~~
"That is so cute!"
The eclaimation woke Ryan with a start, and the first thing he did was automatically move his left hand to join his right on Lily's back, holding her securely on his chest. Then he looked over towards the door and gave Kaitlin a dark look. "Shh!" he ordered.
"It is!" Kaitlin insisted quietly as she walked over and sat down on the edge of the bed. "She's so pretty."
"She's perfect," Ryan replied.
"I still can't believe you had a kid with my sister's ex girlfriend," Kaitlin said, gently reaching out to stroke Lily's cheek.
"Yeah, well, let's leave that part out until Lily's old enough to understand the whole 'mommy is bisexual and dated Auntie Kaitlin's sister' thing," Ryan replied.
"Autie Kaitlin?" Kaitlin asked, trying to sound annoyed but her smile revealed that she was happy about it.
"Yeah, Auntie Kaitlin," Ryan replied, smiling as he carefully sat up. "Who I really hope will babysit sometimes."
"You mean, like, changing diapers?" Kaitlin asked, making a face.
"Okay, maybe not," Ryan agreed, settling Lily in her crib and letting out a relieved breath as she stayed asleep. "How about helping me make sure she has some concept of being girly?" he said. "Because I? Am not an expert on girliness."
"Never would have guessed," Kaitlin said with a smirk. "You seem to in touch with your femin..." she was cut off when one of Lily's teddy bears smacked her in the face. "If my baby niece wasn't sleeping you'd be a dead man," Kaitlin said, throwing the bear back at Ryan.
"So?"
"Please, somebody's gotta make sure she doesn't grow up to cage fight," Kaitlin said, shooting a look at Ryan. "My mom's dying to meet her, too. She's inside with Sandy and Kirsten."
"Tell you what," Ryan said, yawning. "You watch Lily for a couple minutes while I take a shower and change, and then we cna go introduce her to your mom."
"Deal," Kaitlin said, moving over so she was kneeling on the bed beside the crib.
Ryan smiled and got up, pausing to place a brotherly kiss on the top of Kaitlin's head, then grabbed a change of clothes and headed into the bathroom. He glanced in the mirror, shaking his head slightly. He could definitely do the whole dad thing. He had the Cohens to help him, and he was determined not to make the same mistakes his parents had. There wouldn't be any drinking or drug use anywhere near Lily, and he would never raise a hand to her, or yell and scream at her. He'd never call her useless, or trouble, or unwanted.
To Be Continued...
The next one will have a slightly older Lily... Including the scene mentioned in the original little story, where she calls him 'Daddy' for the first time... I think people may die of the cuteness for that one... lol
Author: Mara
Rating: PG-15
Warnings: Language. Sex, but nothing too graphic...
Summary: Love is one of those things you can't really define sometimes, and the best kind of love is the kind that defies definition entirely.
Notes: Another random portion of the saga of Ryan and his daughter... lol... this whole story will be jumping a bit in time... but it'll still be linear (As in, each chapter will take place AFTER the last chapter... but it might take place months or even a couple years after)
Defining Love - Perfect
By the time Ryan made it from Newport to LA, then through traffic to the hospital, Alex had already given birth. He was directed to the room they'd put her in, and found her sleeping lightly, but as he walked in her eyes opened. "I'm sorry I missed it," he told her.
"All you missed was me yelling that you were a dead man for knocking me up," Alex replied tiredly. "And the doctors freaking out over blood loss."
"Are you okay?" Ryan asked, moving to sit down in the chair next to her bed and take her hand in his.
"Just really tired and weak," Alex said. "I'll be fine. But you... you should be down at the nursery checking out Baby Girl Atwood."
"Lily," Ryan said. "I wanna name her Lily, if that's okay with you."
"It's girly," Alex complained, though she was smiling.
"Only Atwood who never betrayed me or hurt me was my Grandma Lily. My dad's mom. She was... she was amazing."
"Then I guess it'll do," Alex said.
"Lily Kelly Atwood," Ryan said. "She's gotta have something from you."
"Besides my scariness, because you know she'll inherit that."
"God help me," Ryan replied with a chuckle. "You're sure you're okay?"
"I'm fine," Alex said. "Go see your girl."
"Our girl," Ryan said firmly. "I don't care if you're not planning on being around much, she's gonna know all about her mom. Not about the way she was conceived against a wall, but..."
Alex laughed. "Go," she said.
Ryan nodded and got up again, pausing only to lean forward and kiss Alex's forehead. "I'm always gonna care about you, Alex," he said. "You know that, right?"
"I'll always give a damn about you, too," Alex replied.
Before Ryan could leave, a nurse came in with the baby. "Is this dad?" she asked.
"Yeah," Alex said. "Give her to him, would ya'?"
Once the baby was in Ryan's arms, he held her close to his chest as he studied her tiny features and her wide, curious, blue eyes. "Hi, Lily," he said, shifting his hold slightly so he could brush his thumb over her cheek. "I'm your daddy, and I love you very much." He looked over at Alex. "She's perfect," he whispered.
"Huh, so I guess she doesn't take after either of us," Alex replied with a smile.
"I don't know, I think she has your eyes," Ryan replied. "But if she ever puts multicolored streaks in ehr hair, I'm blaming you entirely."
"And if she grows up to cage fight, I'll blame you," Alex said, laughing slightly. "You're gonna do a good job with her, Ryan."
"Here's hoping," Ryan whispered.
~~~
Ryan didn't tell the Cohens that Lily had been born, just that he was staying in LA to be closer to Alex for the next few days. He didn't want to be flooded with their attentions yet, and he knew Alex didn't want to see the way Kirsten looked at her, disapproving of Alex's decision not to be in Lily's life. So, when Ryan pulled his car up in front of the Cohen house and Kirsten stepped outside to ask how his visit went, she was surprised to see him lifting a baby filled car seat from the back. "Oh my God," she whispered, coming over.
"I just wanted a couple days of peace to get to know her," Ryan replied.
"She's beautiful," Kirsten cooed, reaching out to stroke a sleeping Lily's cheek. "Oh honey, she's perfect."
"I know," Ryan replied. "Come on, it's chilly, I don't want her out in the cold."
Kirsten nodded and grabbed some of the bags from the back, leaving Ryan to carry the lightest, but most important, thing. "Prescious cargo," she said with a smile.
As they stepped into the house, Ryan could hear Sandy and Seth in the kitchen, and they headed that way. "Hey, wanna keep it down so you don't wake her up?" Ryan asked, gently setting the carrier down.
"Why didn't you tell us?" Sandy asked as he and Seth flocked over to see Lily.
"I wanted a couple days to adjust and get to know her on my own," Ryan said. "Isn't she perfect?" he added after a moment.
"Kinda wrinkly," Seth said.
Ryan smacked him in the stomach. "My daughter is not wrinkly, she's perfect," he said.
"Spoken like a true dad," Sandy said, clapping Ryan on the back. "And he's right Seth, your niece is not wrinkly. Especially compared to you when you were born."
"What's her name?" Seth asked, leaning in again to see her.
"Lily Kelly Atwood," Ryan replied. As though in response to her name, Lily opened her eyes and looked around at the new faces. "Hey, look who woke up," Ryan said, unbuckling her and picking her up. "Just in time to meet your family," he said. "Grandpa Sandy, and Grandma Kirsten, and Uncle Seth," he said.
~~~
The Cohens buzzed around Ryan and Lily for the next few hours, but finally he convinced them, mainly convinced Seth since Sandy and Kirsten understood, that Lily needed to be put to bed, and Ryan needed to work on a paper that was due in a few days. Ryan carefully put Lily in the crib, making sure she was safely positioned and there were no stuff animals in it to cause problems, just like the baby books said, then settled down on his bed to get to work.
He managed to work about an hour before Lily started fussing, and he had to put everything aside. With a sigh, he got Lily out of her crib and checked her diaper, which was dry, then warmed a bottle and fed her, smiling as she happily suckled on it and he found he was able to carefully sit on the bed and read a text book that he put off to once side.
"I can totally do this," he said, glancing down at Lily, then going back to his book.
~~~
He wasn't so sure at 2 in the morning when Lily woke up crying. He could get her to quiet down and be almost asleep, but everytime he tried to put her back in her crib she started whimpering again and worked herself up to screaming. Finally, he gave up and laid back down on his own bed with Lily on his chest, her little red face relaxing and her hands pulling into tiny fists that gripped his shirt. She fell asleep in no time, followed closely by Ryan, who barely managed to glance at the clock first, noticing it was almost 5.
~~~
"That is so cute!"
The eclaimation woke Ryan with a start, and the first thing he did was automatically move his left hand to join his right on Lily's back, holding her securely on his chest. Then he looked over towards the door and gave Kaitlin a dark look. "Shh!" he ordered.
"It is!" Kaitlin insisted quietly as she walked over and sat down on the edge of the bed. "She's so pretty."
"She's perfect," Ryan replied.
"I still can't believe you had a kid with my sister's ex girlfriend," Kaitlin said, gently reaching out to stroke Lily's cheek.
"Yeah, well, let's leave that part out until Lily's old enough to understand the whole 'mommy is bisexual and dated Auntie Kaitlin's sister' thing," Ryan replied.
"Autie Kaitlin?" Kaitlin asked, trying to sound annoyed but her smile revealed that she was happy about it.
"Yeah, Auntie Kaitlin," Ryan replied, smiling as he carefully sat up. "Who I really hope will babysit sometimes."
"You mean, like, changing diapers?" Kaitlin asked, making a face.
"Okay, maybe not," Ryan agreed, settling Lily in her crib and letting out a relieved breath as she stayed asleep. "How about helping me make sure she has some concept of being girly?" he said. "Because I? Am not an expert on girliness."
"Never would have guessed," Kaitlin said with a smirk. "You seem to in touch with your femin..." she was cut off when one of Lily's teddy bears smacked her in the face. "If my baby niece wasn't sleeping you'd be a dead man," Kaitlin said, throwing the bear back at Ryan.
"So?"
"Please, somebody's gotta make sure she doesn't grow up to cage fight," Kaitlin said, shooting a look at Ryan. "My mom's dying to meet her, too. She's inside with Sandy and Kirsten."
"Tell you what," Ryan said, yawning. "You watch Lily for a couple minutes while I take a shower and change, and then we cna go introduce her to your mom."
"Deal," Kaitlin said, moving over so she was kneeling on the bed beside the crib.
Ryan smiled and got up, pausing to place a brotherly kiss on the top of Kaitlin's head, then grabbed a change of clothes and headed into the bathroom. He glanced in the mirror, shaking his head slightly. He could definitely do the whole dad thing. He had the Cohens to help him, and he was determined not to make the same mistakes his parents had. There wouldn't be any drinking or drug use anywhere near Lily, and he would never raise a hand to her, or yell and scream at her. He'd never call her useless, or trouble, or unwanted.
To Be Continued...
The next one will have a slightly older Lily... Including the scene mentioned in the original little story, where she calls him 'Daddy' for the first time... I think people may die of the cuteness for that one... lol
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That was a great post !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Date: 2007-02-16 08:37 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2007-02-16 07:45 pm (UTC)And Ryan's constent mantra that he can do this.
Totally shows how scared he is with the needing to convince himself.
But yes, he will be a great dad.
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Date: 2007-02-16 07:56 pm (UTC)no subject
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Date: 2007-05-28 09:03 am (UTC)Love daddy!ryan, you should really update.
Can't wait for next chap!
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Date: 2007-05-28 10:42 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2008-01-19 08:46 pm (UTC)I just found this today, and I thought that I should beg you to update it because I'm totally in love with the story.
Hope you won't forget about it.