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Dec. 18th, 2003 10:35 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
missmara13Okay, I had a long post, computer errored and closed all browsers, so there goes post.
The gist of it was that I'm all bummed because it just keeps hitting me that in 2 months Owen will be gone, living hours away in Denver. And everytime i think about beign happy about finally getting a real room again, I start feeling guilty because the only reason I'm getting it is because Owen's gonna be gone.
A little while ago I just burst into tears because I'm gonna miss Owen so much. And I'm hungry, but my stomach is all tied up in knots (Both over Owen and our new computer messing up) so I'm scared I'll puke if I try to eat.
I hate crying because it makes it hard to breath, but it's worse if I don't because then I'm bottling everything up inside.
Oh, yeah, and I managed to make my Mama feel bad earlier by saying the only reason I hated moving up here to Wyoming was because I suddenly didn't have either of my brothers, and Mama remembered her mother doing the same to her when she was right around the same age.
Suck to be me at the moment, huh? I can't seem to do much of anything well at the moment, I'm having an insecure night of thinking everything I write totally sucks. I'm about 3 weeks late on both MOT and HF. I'm jsut feelign really down.
The gist of it was that I'm all bummed because it just keeps hitting me that in 2 months Owen will be gone, living hours away in Denver. And everytime i think about beign happy about finally getting a real room again, I start feeling guilty because the only reason I'm getting it is because Owen's gonna be gone.
A little while ago I just burst into tears because I'm gonna miss Owen so much. And I'm hungry, but my stomach is all tied up in knots (Both over Owen and our new computer messing up) so I'm scared I'll puke if I try to eat.
I hate crying because it makes it hard to breath, but it's worse if I don't because then I'm bottling everything up inside.
Oh, yeah, and I managed to make my Mama feel bad earlier by saying the only reason I hated moving up here to Wyoming was because I suddenly didn't have either of my brothers, and Mama remembered her mother doing the same to her when she was right around the same age.
Suck to be me at the moment, huh? I can't seem to do much of anything well at the moment, I'm having an insecure night of thinking everything I write totally sucks. I'm about 3 weeks late on both MOT and HF. I'm jsut feelign really down.
