If you read this entry from a couple days back, you know my cat, ACC, was sick and I was worried we'd lose him soon. If you read my response to comment about it, you'll know we thought he might be gonna be okay afterall.

He didn't get better.

Yesterday my mom took him tot he vet, the vet said that it may ahve been a bad tooth (which ahd since come out) hurting him that caused him to lose weight and he may have an infection. So she gave us antibiotics for him.

Yesterday afternoon, I walked home because I wanted to see him as soon a spossible, not almsot 3 hours after I got off work. He wa sin the bathtub, drinking from the dripping faucet, and I sorta teased him about being soaking wet and slipping in the tub, and then later he stumbled while moving on my mom's bed and I teased again. Now I think he had a small stroke sometime between my mom seeing him at lunchtime and me getting home.

This morning my mom woke me up early to tell me he not only wasn't better, but he could barely lift his head. So I got dressed and came out to sit with him for the next 45 minutes or so, petting him and holding him and watching him try to get up but not be able to.

Mama took me to work, then took him straight to the vet. When our vet looked at him, she told mama that his heart was barely beating, and she thought he might have had a stroke, and that's why he couldn't get up.

Mama had him put to sleep so he wouldn't suffer. And I of course agree with that decision, the last thing I wanted was for him to suffer.

Almost 4 years ago (May 24th, 2005) we lost our poor sweet Meja, who was my dog, and now we've lost ACC, who was my cat... They were the oldest, so of course we lsot them first, but... the dog we currently have is clearly mama's half the time I'm lucky to get a glance when we get home form work he's so excited that she's home. One of our remaining cat's barely tolerates me but loves mama. The other cat doesn't prefer anybody beyond whoever's willing to love on her when SHE wants to be loved on.

ACC was the only one who ever cuddled with me when I was sick and needed comfort and he's gone.

I won't be uploading the songs for my 2nd Lyrical ficlets thing, or posting the explainations. I may not respond to comments for a while either, though I'm gonna try because otherwise... I really don't wanna start sinking but I'm scared I will.

I SUCK at making cookies.

At my mom's office christmas party, I won a little game thing and my prize was chocolate cookie mix with a moose cookie cutter. I wanted to make the cookies, and I thought I'd make them while my mom was out running errands today. Except no matter what I do, it's fucked up. You're suppose to be able to ROLL the dough out, but it keeps sticking to the rolling pin, even after I put flour on the pin to keep it from happening. And now there's extra flour int he dough, and it's probably over mixed, and I';ve completely fucked it up.

I jsut put it all bakc int he bowl, turned the oven off again, and put the bowl in the fridge, I'll see if mama can find a way to fix it, and if not... at leats we didn't pay for it, we got it for free.

I just feel like a fuck up because I apparently can't follow simple instructions and immitate what I've seen my mom do a MILLION times since I was a kid. I wanted to surprise her with fresh baked chocolate cookies, but... now I've just made more work for her. I'll tell her that I don't mind just having chocolate drop cookies and I'll spoon them out, but... I'm hoping she can maybe explain what I fucked up so I'll know.

Okay, RIGHT at 4pm (closing time for CJ's), after I closed one gate and I'm starting to close the other, two teenage boys race up and want to come in and shape. These boys are kids that come to CJ's pretty much everyday at leats once. They were probably there earlier today. They claim to want to just get one pack of gum, but if that's all they wouldn't have made such a big deal out of it. And why didn't they buy it earlier in the day? Are they somehow the ONLY two two kids at the lab school who don't have some time between 7am and 4pm to come into CJ's? I get a couple DOZEN of the kids EVERYDAY!

One of them stood under the gate so I couldn't close it, and it took my asking them to please move like 3 or 4 times, polite every time, before finally the kid did. Then they proceeded to whine and complain that 'the other guy would', and be obnoxious and rude for about 5 minutes, including yelling "I hope you get fired!" and "You're gonna get fired!" at me while I'm trying to do closing. When I asked "Why? For following the rules?" they made a comment about "How about something called customer service?" at which point I admit to loosing any semblence of patience and saying in a very firm tone "How about I call campus police and tell them your harassing me?" and the boys hurriedly left saying "No."

These kids were rude, and made some comment about "More money for the bunny." followed by snickering, which strikes me as being a playboy bunny reference which is insulting on so many levels. If they hadn't snickered I would have thought that maybe they just thought they were cool because they rhymed money and bunny... but the snicker was telling... my instincts were yelling at me not to let them in and not to take my eyes off them until I had the gate down.

Afterwards, I was paranoid about checking everytime I heard the slightest noise in the store (I had to wash some dishes in the back, so I couldn't see the main store unless I leaned back out the doorway) because I just felt nervous.

Yes, there were other people close enough that if they'd tried to rob me or otherwise hurt me, I could have yelled and gotten help, but that doesn't mean they might not have shoplifted (I've been warned that the Lab school kids have to be watched because they'll shoplift) by having one distract me while the other pocketed stuff.

If it had been someone who wanted to get toothpaste, or a tooth brush, or headache medicine, cough drops, shampoo, laundry detergent, I might have made an except. But these boys wanted GUM and my instincts said I shouldn't let them in. I've always been raised to trust my instincts, so I did.

So... do you guys think I was a bitch for not letting them in? By threatening to call Campus police? I plan on asking the morning person if she thinks I was right or wrong tomorrow, so I'll know in the future, but... since I didn't know one way or the other what the policy is, and considering my instincts yelling at me 'no'... do you gusy think I was wrong?

It's tradition to have it on Christmas Eve so that no on has to do more than wash their own dishes if they reheat something... lol...

Ham, corn on the cob, and stuffing, plus a pumpkin pie (homemade by my mom) and a Razzleberry pie (store bought). I don't much like pie, but... the rest is always yummy because my mom? Is a GREAT cook...

I'll be back later with the final of the 24 gifts, plus a bonus because... ::drum roll:: I finished the next chapter of Black Friday! lol... actually, I'm posting this public to announce that tomorrow or the 26th, I'm gonna make all 24 gifts, plus all of Black Friday so far, public entries as a gift to everyone who reads my journal but hasn't friended me.

Anyway, hope everyone enjoys the day, later!

My big brother Seth is coming THIS SATURDAY for a week and a half visit! It's been like a year since I saw him, and I've missed him SOOO much, but he's coming THIS SATURDAY! YAYAYAYAY! lol

Sorry to readers of "With A Whimper" and "Another Day", I don't know when either fic will be updated... I couldn't write last ngiht because it hurt too much to sit upright (I have a bad back from a fall I took when I was about 7), and then this morning... this morning was the Earthquake in Hawaii.

My brother says lives on Oahu, works at Pearl Harbor Naval Station (He's a Navy guy), and we haven't heard from him. With the power out on the Big Island, Maui, and Oahu, plus phone lines and cell circuits down, we may not hear from him for a while.

Mama and I are sure that we would feel it if something happened to Seth, so we think he's okay, but we can't help worrying and I'm only online for a few minutes to check e-mail to see if he's gotten in touch that way, then I'm getting offline again so he can maybe call.

Anyway, I'm gonna try to write today, but I don't know if I'll be back online again.

Later.

It's official, Lot #28 is still cursed.

The guys with the loud ass generate and the music MIGHT have just been the guys setting the place up (Hooking up the water pipes and hookign up the power), but today... oh man... lol

A little while after I got up, I heard a loud knocking next door and I look out the window to see 2 POLICE OFFICERS knocking on the door. A pair of guys pulled up and talked to the cops, one of them had the keys to the trailer and went inside... the cops asked the guys for IDs... I couldn't overall all of it, so I don't know what the deal was, but... the cops showed up before anyone had even moved into the trailer, so that CAN'T be good, can it? lol

I want out of this place... lol

Later.

As in, yesterday morning, over the course of 20 minutes, I went from waist length hair to jaw length hair... lol

I had my first professional hair cut (my mom always cut it before), and donated the longness that got cut off to 'Locks Of Love', the people who use real hair to make wigs for kids who have lost their hair due to cancer and other diseases. The person who runs the place was really like awestruck by the huge amount of hair that I donated! lol

But OMBG I LOVE my new haircut! It's like even with the back of my jawbone, so it's fairly short. And my hair is naturally wavy/kinda curly, especially when short, so it's got tons of body that it didn't before because the weight of the hair made it straighter. And it's been so hot the last few days that it's just SOOOO nice to not have all that hair anymore... lol

And it's so great because, like, with my hair long, I HAD to put it in 2 braids every night before bed or it would be so damn tangled the next morning. Last night, my hair was sjut plain loose, and yet this morning? I just ran my fingers through my hair and got all the tangles out in like less than 30 seconds! lol So great...

Anyway, I'm happy with my new hair... yay me... lol

Later