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missmara13) wrote2006-03-21 03:58 pm
missmara13) wrote2006-03-21 03:58 pm
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Sadness...
I just found out that someone I knew years ago died, and I started to cry. Even though I haven't had ANYTHING to do with her in YEARS and our last communication was FAR from friendly.
The thing is, she was a great author, one of the first SeaQuest fanfics I ever read was by her. And while yeah, for a LONG time after the last time I had any communications with her, I was pissed off and bad mouthing her, it still breaks my heart to know that she's died. She was so young (Only 26) which just makes it all the more sad.
I don't know... it's weird that it's hitting me hard since i hated her for so long, and even before the big nastiness (during which *I* somehow became the badguy after being insulted and treated like trash...) we weren't like friends really... but she's dead and it's breaking my heart. Apparently she went in for surgery (Planned surgery, not emergency) like a week ago, and something happened the other night...
Maybe it's hitting me because my mom's health isn't the greatest right now. She has Bronchitis for the 3rd year in a row (It's always around this time of the year, too...) and it just scares me soemtimes when I hear her coughing in the middle of a night and when she's sick... because it takes a LOT for my mom to get sick, and she bounces back fast most of the time (A virus that knocked me on my ass for like 2 full weeks and left me weak for another 2 weeks, only knocked her out of commission for like 3 days), but it scares me.
So, I'm having a freak out moment today. It'll pass. I plan on another post later that won't be so depressing. Maybe a run down on my current favorites in TV, Movies, and Books... or something... lol...
Later...
(Editted because I found out Chance's Age)
The thing is, she was a great author, one of the first SeaQuest fanfics I ever read was by her. And while yeah, for a LONG time after the last time I had any communications with her, I was pissed off and bad mouthing her, it still breaks my heart to know that she's died. She was so young (Only 26) which just makes it all the more sad.
I don't know... it's weird that it's hitting me hard since i hated her for so long, and even before the big nastiness (during which *I* somehow became the badguy after being insulted and treated like trash...) we weren't like friends really... but she's dead and it's breaking my heart. Apparently she went in for surgery (Planned surgery, not emergency) like a week ago, and something happened the other night...
Maybe it's hitting me because my mom's health isn't the greatest right now. She has Bronchitis for the 3rd year in a row (It's always around this time of the year, too...) and it just scares me soemtimes when I hear her coughing in the middle of a night and when she's sick... because it takes a LOT for my mom to get sick, and she bounces back fast most of the time (A virus that knocked me on my ass for like 2 full weeks and left me weak for another 2 weeks, only knocked her out of commission for like 3 days), but it scares me.
So, I'm having a freak out moment today. It'll pass. I plan on another post later that won't be so depressing. Maybe a run down on my current favorites in TV, Movies, and Books... or something... lol...
Later...
(Editted because I found out Chance's Age)