Well, the day started out bad...

[missmara13]

it can't get much worse.

My dad called early this morning to tell me: My Grandma Maxine, his mother, died last night, after months of not even knowing who her family was anymore. I didn't really know her very well, but she was my last living grandparent, and feel so horrible because last year she sent me a letter and I never got the chance to write her back...

And now all I can think about is being 11 years-old and watching my Grandpa Fred, my mom's dad, slowly wasting away and not knowing who we were even though we lived in teh same house with him...

I was answering comments in my LJ to try and distance myself for a bit, but I can't do it, and I'm upset and I don't know if I'll be updating any of my stories today... so... don't expect anything today.

I'll still probably do my commentary for The OC tonight, but...

Later

Comments

[reader85.livejournal.com]

I'm so sorry for your lost.

[missmara13]

thanks... I'm trying to write anyway, get out some angst... Which means extra torture for poor Ryan... lol... When I use my angst to fuel the writing, I tend to write extra dark and angsty stuff... so be forewarned... lol

[brokenroads.livejournal.com]

:( I am sorry *hugs*

[missmara13]

thanks...

[fifimom.livejournal.com]

Big hug and little kiss. I'm sorry for you and your families loss. No matter how prepared you think you are when you loose someone it really makes you sad and kinda lonely and nostalgic. You just have to ride it out.

[missmara13]

thanks... I'm feeling a bit better now after breaking down crying a couple times and tormenting Ryan in the new chapter of 'Heavily Broken'... which I think I may post soon, so people will get to read SOMETHING from me tonight...

[jazzyjackrabbit.livejournal.com]

I'm sorry. Hope things get better for you soon.
Take care. *big hug*

[dogsbody01.livejournal.com]

I'm so sorry to hear about your grandma.My thoughts are with you.

[missmara13]

thanks

[dogsbody01.livejournal.com]

Your welcome.